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Anniversary in Pictures

2011 marks 8 Years that I have been happily/ecstatically Married 🙂

For our Anniversary, we spent the weekend in a log cabin, away from the world 🙂

Alone? Nope. Why? Because it also marks 4 Years since Charlize’s life was saved when her heart was repaired at The Montreal Children’s Hospital


As part of our celebration, Chantale and I are taking the kids to see The Smurfs at the movies. There is great irony in the fact that we’re celebrating a “Blue Baby” by going to see a movie about little Blue creatures 😉 But then again, that’s just the kind of people we are! 🙂

So, back to the Wedding Anniversary. How do you celebrate 8 Years? Well, according to the sites I read, the traditional gifts are linen and bronze. Okay, not exactly something to party about, but we do what we can. Since I had already purchased some new linens just a few short weeks ago, I didn’t want to go there. As for bronze, again, I didn’t want to get any other statues. I’ve been wanting to get Chantale some earrings but bronze? Not sure how that would be. Luckily for me, I found the National Geographic’s Novica website and came across these beautiful bronze dangle earrings handmade (to order) by Milagros Johanson in the Andes.

The only problem? They would not arrive in time for me to take back to Canada (last Friday). Also… I really have been wanting to get her some fancier earrings. But where to shop? Zales? Birks? Again, the net came in handy and I found Jewels for Me. My selection? White Gold, White Topaz earrings! Beautiful!

Why Topaz? “Topaz is a soothing, empathetic stone that will direct energy to the place it is most needed. It heals and energizes. Topaz is a promoter of truth and forgiveness. Use it to find your own path.” Also:

White topaz:
* Increases your awareness of thoughts and deeds and the karmic effects of these
* Purifies emotions as well as actions
* Activates cosmic awareness
* Removes stagnant energy

So, this hits on a lot of points I liked 🙂 My final problem was how to spring them on her. Our official day is in a few hours (or, Aug 30 to be more precise) but I didn’t want to wait that long – especially as we were going away for the celebration. What I did was simple. Once checked into the cabin and unpacked, the kids were out by the water playing in the sand (and chasing ducks) and I put the little package of a white plush bear with a little rose sewn in its hands hugging the box by the bedside. I called Chantale up and told her there was something in our room that she had to see. She came upstairs, saw the package and I could swear her hands trembled a little as she unwrapped the gift and opened the box 🙂

When she saw the earrings she was in complete awe, and when I read her the note and the meanings behind my gifts, she got a little misty-eyed 🙂 It was a wonderful and as magical a moment as I could have hoped for 🙂

Happy Anniversary to us! 🙂

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For Clotho

For Clotho

There comes a moment,
A Point in Time,
When there is no choice,
But to cut the line.

The battle’s been fierce,
The struggle’s been long,
But fatigue has set in,
And it’s time to move on.

With a sad little snip,
And a settling on shore
Watch the water pull away
Until you see it no more.

But know deep inside
That below the visible surface
The power still moves
And lives on in that place.

Catch a glimpse if you can
But fret not if you don’t
For your paths will rejoin
When it’s time to go home.

-Mike Aragona, Aug 5, 2011

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Life is so strange…

In 1979, when The B52’s released their debut album, my 12-year old self could never have imagined, sitting in the living room listening to Rock Lobster on my turntable, that 32 years later I’d still be enjoying their songs or that I could find myself, in jeans, walking to work in the Bay Area, crossing palm-tree-lined streets, a Vanilla Latte in one hand and a laptop bag in the other, while Planet Claire and Rock Lobster rang in my ears on a device the size of a pack of gum.

I guess, to that Mike, I’d probably consider myself a “Yuppie” – which is a bizarre thought as I could never imagine myself a “Professional” *anything* !!

At least I take comfort in knowing that the music of those times still resonates with me and still has messages that can be taken to heart… even 30 years later.

Or, to quote Missing Persons, “Life is so strange… when you don’t know… how can you tell… where you’re going to… you can’t be sure… of any destination… something could change… and then you won’t know…”

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More thoughts on the Digital Dilemma

It’s funny how when you’re doing something that’s out of your “norm” you don’t always fully question the details. Especially when you’re just starting to explore. That’s what struck me this past weekend as I tried to settle down and spend some time catching up on some comic reading – both physical and digital.

As I mentioned before, I had finally jumped onto the iPad bandwagon mainly due to wanting a better way of managing my comics collection. DC’s big reboot was the impetus to get me thinking about where I want to spend my money and how I want to store all the books (or rather, IF I wanted to store all the books). Going through my pull list, I was a little surprised that the number of titles didn’t really change that much (even if the actual books did). I’m only reading one Marvel book (Ka-Zar, ‘natch) and that, being a mini series, will end soon. The rest were DC, Boom, and IDW titles.

Anyhow, as I finally reviewed what titles I would read physically and which I would read digitally, a realization struck me. I wasn’t saving any money. Why? Because the digital comics cost what they cost. Period. The physical comics? I get a discount as a regular subscriber at my LCS. What’s more, they are giving regular clients a huge 40% discount (as opposed to the regular 25%) on the new DCU until January. That means that for at least 4 months I would be able to sample (physically) all the new titles at less cost than buying them digitally – even if I didn’t download on same day digital release.

So, suddenly, I’m left thinking: do I go ahead and purchase a book like Wonder Woman digitally at $1.99 (a week later – because I never go to my LCS weekly at any rate) or do I get it physically for $1.79 ? Granted, of course, there are taxes involved on the actual comic, so the costs would pretty much even out. But the point in fact is that at the end of the day I can either hold SOMETHING in my hand, or have the ABILITY to read something in my hand. This might seem like a no-brainer to most, but having been a comic collector/ reader for almost 40 years, it’s still a little tough to let go of the notion of being able to strew your comics across your bedroom, or have them in piles all around you (like Uncle Scrooge and his coins).

Again, in the end, I save space by going digital. If I truly like the book I read, I can carry it around with me “forever”. If I don’t, the file will get deleted at one point but the issue will still belong to me and I can re-download it at any time (should I want to). Physically? It would either go up on a shelf for a while, or in a box in my basement…

Well there you go. This exercise of writing out my thoughts has helped me once again in my resolve to move towards the future. 🙂

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Thoughts on Book and Comic Book Collecting…

It looks like the technology to pull me kicking and screaming into the future has indeed arrived.

It started last Xmas when I went ahead and purchased a Kobo eReader as a means of controlling the sheer volume of books I tend to read and keep at home. After an at-least 8 year slow purge of physical books from my life (with the biggest sprint being last year as I was finishing up my basement renovations), I came to accept (because I always realized it) that the main reason I loved having books around is to go back and reference them (at most) or enjoy the cover artwork (at least).

Out of the thousands of hard covers, paperbacks, or table books in my collection, there were only a smattering of them that truly made it beyond that level and into the “re-reading” category. So, in truth, having all this “stuff” wasn’t doing much except take up space. Hence, the move to Kobo. Now, as then, the point was always two-fold of which books I would continue to purchase physically (usually either visual/graphical books or those from series I really loved and wanted around the house) versus digital (for consumption and curiosity). The point of going with Kobo was basically that all I could use it for WAS read. I didn’t want something for surfing or anything else. Basically, a book equivalent of a Discman or a Walkman (remember those?). I copy or download books, I read at my leisure.

As I also noted, graphical books – or more specifically comic books – were completely out of scope for this move. As far as I was concerned, I was not ready to move to digital comics. Almost 40 years of time, energy, and memories invested into this love of the four-color medium meant the move could not be easily accepted.

And then DC decided they needed to “clean up” their entire line of books. Whether this was to get clear ownership of their flagship titles (after all the lawsuits), or whether it was to get a bigger slice of revenue by branching out and enticing new readers, it doesn’t matter at the moment. What matters to me is the fact that as far as I’m concerned a big final chapter is being closed on a Universe I’ve loved for 40+ years. A vast majority of the characters I loved growing up (like The Justice Society, for prime example) would no longer be published. All other characters would be revamped and brought up to “today’s standards”. Hence, things like Superman -outside of powers- would be a different character.

DC’s strategy is that this would be a great “jumping-on” point for fans. Of course, the reverse is true. It is also a great “jumping-off” point.

In thinking back to events that made me stop reading specific comics or companies, it’s always been these kind of wholesale wipe-outs. The Spidey Clone Saga took me out of reading Spider-Man until JMS came to the title. Then, ret-conning his marriage to Mary Jane took me completely out of Marvel (so I didn’t have to bother with things like Skrull replacements in a body-snatchers theme). Now, DC is closing off many titles/ characters I really like and offering new versions.

Are they interesting? Yeah, some. Are they worth investing time in? Probably not. Comic fans will cite things like “What Crisis brought in was revoked 10 years later” and other arguments along the line of everything that gets revamped goes through another revamp after a number of years anyhow. But I’m just a little tired of it at this point. To me, I wonder why I should try to care about any new characters or situations. Heck, even the movie studios aren’t really interested in modern superheroes, they’re always going back to the original source material of the 60’s-70’s anyhow! And since I’ve got all those books, I’m not missing anything 🙂

But I digress. The point I was trying to get to until I distracted myself was that this “new” DC universe is not where I’ll be spending my money. Indeed, the thought of purchasing comics that won’t give me the satisfaction I expect and then having it “linger” in a box in my basement is just not right. So, in evaluating the costs, I decided to get an iPad last month. After all, from what I had seen, it was the closest technological gadget for mimicking the experience of reading a comic.

I spent the month experimenting with the various apps for downloading and reading comics and tried out a bunch of free ones (either previews or specials). I discovered a few things. Notably, all the Marvel comics I read of titles I stopped buying/ reading held no appeal for me. Sure the characters were the same (ie; acted the same) but the stories had nothing new to offer. Thus, nothing to gain there. The DC titles I sampled were of titles that were considered ‘classics’ but again, didn’t do anything for me. However, I used the time to catch up on some older material for the experience. And then, I went ahead and purchased a digital comic.

As someone who has always “needed” to hold/own/have a physical copy of anything/everything, this was a big thing for me. Suddenly, it wasn’t an .mp3 or .m4a file that I could “see” – this was a file on my iPad “only”. And space on my iPad is not as limitless as my basement – which means regular clean-up. However, the biggest difference in this case is that although I might have to delete this file one day, the rights to READ it still belong to me. Which means, that should I want to, I could re-download it without cost (since it was already paid for) and read it again.

So what do I gain? Pretty covers I can see in my listing of “my comics” in the app I use, the experience of reading a comic in an almost-identical size, the kind of clarity of image I could only hope to see on the printed page without glare, the ability to carry dozens of comics with me at a single time without worrying about page creases or coffee spills, and a clutter-free life.

Does this mean I’ll stop buying physical comics? No, not yet. There are still titles and characters I will prefer to hold in a physical copy. But, after testing the waters with the iPad, those are much smaller than they were when I first thought of this experiment.

Of course, this discussion can go on and on and on. About my reasons for getting an iPad. About the debate of being a Comic Reader vs a Comic Collector. About the things you can do with a physical copy (like loan it to a friend, pass it on to a child, etc) that you can’t do with a digital copy (at the moment). But there’s no reason to go there. The material will always exist now. This was not the case at the beginning of comic book time. This means that there will always be options for seeing, reading, or owning anything that you can potentially “miss”. The time of “collector mentality” is also something that doesn’t necessarily apply any more. etc, etc, etc.

Instead, I’ll just close with one very important point:

If a fire ever took out my comic collection (35,000 when I stopped counting 11 years ago), I would have nothing to show for it but my memories. If a disk or system crash ever takes out my iPad, I could replace everything on it by logging back into my accounts and re-downloading what I’ve already purchased. Kind of puts a lot of things in perspective, doesn’t it?

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*Blink*

The days and weeks just evaporate like raindrops in the sun…

Chantale, Melyssa, Kyle, and Charlize flew down to Emeryville on July 1st and spent the last week and a half with me. They flew back to Montreal today (their plane just landed a short while ago). Why does time always have to go so fast?

It wasn’t the kind of vacation we were hoping to take this year as a family, but with the vacation blackout period I’m under on top of the timing requirements of everyone else, it was the only time they could take. So, they flew over here and got to live a little of my day-to-day life. Really not hot or sunny here, but they did bring the sun which helped make their first weekend really nice. We spent quite a lot of time shopping and driving around, even heading into the mountains. Had some nice meals in the close-by restaurants and then, finally, this past weekend we headed into San Francisco to enjoy a bit of the Golden Gate Park (or more specifically the Academy of Science). The Sunday we spent at Pier39 was also quite nice as the sun was out and the crowds were unbelievable. We had lunch at the Bubba Gump Shrimp Co which was really fun, too 🙂

Having them here in the hotel, although a little crowded, was so nice I can hardly express it. I would get up at 630am and out the door at 7am while everyone was still sleeping. I would get home a little after 4pm and we would hang around and chat before getting supper done. After supper, things depended. We either went for a walk, or just hung out more and watched a movie or something. Like I said, it wasn’t exactly a “vacation” but it was a nice break and being able to see each other for that long was wonderful.

Of course, the sadness I felt last night was nothing compared to the pain I felt this morning after breakfast. I tried to be strong in front of the kids but it was impossible and the waterworks started – which, of course, made Kyle really sad and he broke down crying as well – which made Charlize sad and worried. It took a while to compose myself again – long enough to accompany them downstairs to the waiting taxi. I stayed strong long enough to get Charlize and Kyle to smile again but once they drove away, my tears returned. It took the walk to work to get myself under control again but the moment I walked through the doors to the suite tonight and saw the empty room… well, then everything shattered once more.

Have I mentioned how hard it is to be away from my family? 🙁 It’ll be 2 months soon which means another 7 months to go. It’s a good thing there is SO much work to do because I’m kept so busy I don’t have time to miss anyone during the day. The evenings, I get to Skype with them which helps. Besides which, evenings generally aren’t very long. So, yeah. Hurts like hell today/ tonight, but I’ll be better tomorrow. And then, there will only be 7 do-dos left before I fly back to Montreal for the weekend AND Kyle’s 6th Birthday 🙂

Chantale and the kids should also be able to come back for another week at some point during this summer, and I’ll be off the last week of August as well, so we’ll have a good amount of time together. After September, a new schedule will come into effect so we’ll have to see how that goes. At that point we’ll be able to count the months on one hand which will also help.

For now, I’ve got some nice photos (like the trip to the Muir Woods Lookout) as well as nice memories (like going to dbshoes with Kyle and getting Converse runners for both of us) which will have to do to keep me going…

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Missed Milestones.

After a lifetime of saying this… sometimes I still can’t believe how fast time goes!

I’ve been wanting to write a little blog note since my last Home Leave but it’s already been 2 weeks since then and still nothing! The big reasons behind wanting to keep it going was because on June 23rd, Charlize went for her follow-up appointment at the Cardiologist after 2 years to see how her little heart was doing. The visit itself is routine, but the event is still one of great importance to us. Thus, it was with heavy heart for me that I could not be there with Chantale to see how our little baby is doing. In fact, I didn’t realize how nervous I actually was until I got the “all clear” signal that morning. As Chantale told me, Charlize was a real trouper and they sent me a scan of the x-ray (which is actually hanging by my desk 🙂 ). What was really nice is that one of the nurses who took such great care of us 4 years ago during the ordeal was able to make a surprise visit to see them. Well, surprise for them because I actually asked her to drop in 🙂

All this leads into June 24th, which was when we all celebrated Charlize’s 4th Birthday! At her request (insistent!), we threw her a Princess Party! Chantale went out of her way to get a ton of Princess decorations including making a cake with them on top! Charlize was very much entranced by it all and the family gathering was wonderful, especially with having James over for it as well. So, we had a lot to celebrate (me being home, Charlize’s strong heart, her birthday, the family) which made the Home Leave that much more special. The next day, we headed over to visit my parents (on the way to dropping James off) which was very emotional for them as well – especially seeing James which was like seeing the ghost of me back almost 30 years ago (which, for my parents, brings to the forefront just how much time has gone by, and how different their lives are today from those days).

To end off the weekend, we went to watch Cars 2 on Sunday which was a very satisfying sequel for us 🙂 The kids especially enjoyed the Toy Story short as it was a nice unexpected surprise to kick off the movie.

Now, you see how a wonderful family weekend like that needed to be noted? 🙂

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School Thoughts…

It’s funny… I’m reading through the final Home & School bulletin from Edgewater and am feeling a mix of sadness and regret.

Sadness because of the truth/fact that my little boy, Kyle, is done with Kindergarten! That evening a year ago, with all the emotions we went through as we got him ready for his first days at Kindergarten, seems so far away. And yet, it was only a short year. It wasn’t easy for us to “let go” of our boy, but it sure was exciting to see him grow and change, watch as he made progress in reading and speaking french, smile in joy as we talked with him and saw his intellect expand as he engaged us in thoughtful discussion about so many things. And now, we’ll have to start thinking of him going into Grade 1 (after the summer, of course). Our little baby boy is going to be 6 years old next month. Not so little any more.

So, a little sadness, but very much filled with pride as well.

As for the regret part… well, that stems from the fact that I’ve always been a supporter of Home & School but unfortunately this year it was impossible to be anything more than a financial supporter as opposed to an in-person active one. I think back at all the time I spent with Parent’s Council when James and Melyssa were in elementary and how good it felt to be a part of their educational pursuits. With Kyle, I almost felt like I would have been able to go even further in my volunteering but the timing was always wrong.

So, a little regret in not being able to have a hand in guiding some of the activities put on in the school. The two biggest ones I would have loved to have put in place would have been an author speak and/or exercise on creating writing with the older kids, and getting some of my artist friends to come in to the library and do some kind of sketch presentation of sorts. Anyhow, these are not ideas that are dead, just dormant until the timing is better (and/or I’m back in town!)

School… what a totally different perspective you get on it when you’re a parent as opposed to when you’re living through it as a student… 🙂

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