Not exactly in the best moods these days. Mom was re-admitted to the hospital on Friday. Seems another stone is apparently forming. We visited her yesterday and she wasn’t doing so well. She had been doped up most of Saturday as it were. Rough and emotionally draining. Suddenly there became a high chance of cancelling out on our Xmas day hosting…
That’s the kind of mood that I’ve been fighting with all week. Chantale’s been wonderful in lifting my spirits, and last night was truly magical as we decorated the tree when the kids came over. The end result was amazing, especially with the backdrop of our new curtains courtesy of my in-laws who bought them for us for Xmas.
But, prior to all that, I wanted to just chuck it all. I was ready to chuck Comicopia, I was ready to chuck LJ. In fact, I had removed most everyone from my list and was getting ready to delete it. Just have not felt like being here. Haven’t felt like reading and did not want to BE read. Got a phone call on friday that could easily be summed up as a ‘farewell/ suicide note’ from a friend of mine. I’m tired of carrying it all.
I’m home today since my Mom can’t obviously watch the kids as she was initially supposed to. I’m so greatful to have an understanding boss, especially when it comes to matters of family.
I’m drained.